PEP - Expecting to be done by the end of September

Today is the 12th day that I worked for Onion Boy.
I was and am still so frustrated at the way they work especially the decision making part, they keep changing there original brief that made it really hard for me to cope with. Plus, working without payment but because of my reputation and their kindness, I tried my best although I don't really happy with my design. After attending a few lecture of RDP class, I realised that I did miss out a lot of step in design process which I was supposed to follow such as the initial research, brainstorming and sketching out idea proposals, instead of jumping to the computer stage where by I let my creativity lead by the computer.
Novice, Advanced Beginner or Competent, Proficient and Expert???
The way I worked made me question my professional stage? A novice or proficient? Probably in between. As a third year student actively learning and reflecting on the design process, I seemed to lose direction when it comes to self-direct my work process where there will be no uni tutors to assist me on my projects. But then, it is good to know what I am missing and what need to be develop in term of the design process. I don' t think that I am not creative, I don' t think that I don't have a talent. I just think what I am still lacking is passion and concept of professionalism which can be developed through work experience, that in this case, PEP is really become a really helpful opportunity. I will soon do internship at Digital Eskimo to train myself in a different design environment which I think would be a very helpful reference for my future study and career. The experience I had here at Onion Boy will help to prepare for working at DE. Hope everything will be great.